Feb 29, 2008

Going Stir Crazy

I am ready to be done with winter. I am sick of snow and cold already. This has been the longest winter EVER! This weather zaps what little energy I do have and just makes me want to hibernate. Even the dog is lazy in winter!

I can't wait for warm weather and sunshine so I can open my windows and get rid of this stale air in here. I don't think I'm going to make it until April or May waiting on some nice days to get here! Help!

Feb 20, 2008

Killer Instincts

It seems like it's been ages since my last blog post. I'm trying my best to keep up with things, but the all day sickness and exhaustion are proving to be a hurtle that even I must lay down under and nap! I don't know what to write about. My mind seems to be stuck on babies and baby stuff and my upcoming doctor's appointment. It's less than 2 weeks away now so it's getting closer! I am excited, but still apprehensive that once I get there something won't be just perfect. I have a list of questions 4 miles long. You'd think that a second time mom wouldn't have so many questions and demands. I mean, I've done this before, it shouldn't be a big deal. Right?

I have to say that once I see this baby on ultrasound I'm sure I'll feel much better. I'll feel even better still if I can hear it's little heart beating.

Paul's mom asked if I had any instinct of whether the baby will be a boy or a girl. I am feeling that it's going to be a boy. However, with Haley, I was wrong. With Haley I think I wanted a boy so badly that the "want" superceded the instinct. This time I don't care if we have a boy or a girl, and yet I'm still thinking boy. Cheri22 said it would be a boy, so maybe she'll be right with the sex like she was right with when I'd get pregnant. A girl can hope!

Feb 10, 2008

My husband, My love

Sometimes, I think my husband is a real ass. Not today though. Today, he not only made dinner, but he also did the dishes and kept Haley entertained while I napped. It was a wonderful day here. It is days like this that make me fall more and more in love with Paul. It is days like this that never let me take my husband for granted.

I think that the pregnancy has finally sunk in with Paul. I think at first that it all seemed too unreal. It was dream-like. I can't imagine what it's like to be a man and not feel anything related to pregnancy, but be expected to believe it. LOL I think it takes a couple weeks to fully sink in. He's keeping track of where I am, when the doctor's appointment is, and reading up on each week of the pregnancy as we get there. He is being absolutely so sweet and wonderful about it all. I couldn't ask for a more supportive husband. I can only imagine how wonderful he will be as the pregnancy progresses and my belly grows. I think he'll take great care of me!

I have to admit that recently I love the way he looks at me. As if pregnancy has made me look different. I can see the love in his eyes and it's such a great feeling when I catch him. He loves that I am pregnant with his baby. The only person who loves that more, is me. I can't wait to share our pregnancy with him. Right now, it's just me and the growing little bean, but I can't wait to share those first kicks and flips of the baby with him. I think that will be a very special moment for both of us- something we will always remember.

This pregnancy has definitely brought something different to our marriage. A strength that can't be described with words. A feeling that transcends the normal spectrum of emotions and nearly brings tears to my eyes. In this moment, I don't think it's possible to love my husband more that I do now. Even though I can't imagine it now, I think I'll love him more once I see him hold our child, nurture and cuddle and love that child. The child that we made, together, out of our love for each other.

Feb 1, 2008

Super Sledder and Broke Back Momma

Well, when school was cancelled today due to the snow, I thought it would make a great sledding day. I love sledding! What I failed to remember is that I haven't been sledding since I hurt my back a couple years ago and also that I'm now pregnant. Duhr!! Get with the program, Mindy!

I am in so much pain that I can't even explain it. To top things off, I can't take any good pain killers and I don't even have any Tylenol in the house. All I have in the cupboard is Motrin and that's off limits. Dang it. Paul should be home in about 20 minutes though so I'm hoping he'll run up and get me some. If he does, I think I'll kiss his talon-like toes (no matter how ill it makes me!).

The most important thing is that Haley had fun. And she did. She was having a blast! We bought her a saucer sled this year and she loves that thing when it turns her around backwards! That kid is a thrill seeker and I am totally anticipating her asking to sky dive for her 16th birthday! I even went down the hill once. Relax, it was slow, I was just trying to pack down a path so that Haley could go faster. It worked. Haley was even trying to get it packed down further on out because she wanted to keep going longer. She's such a fun kid! We had a ball. I'd like to do it again sometime when I have some tylenol ready! HAHA!

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